Practicing at the Ashtanga Yoga "Mothership"

So, now that you have an idea of how the Ashtanga Yoga system works.  Here, at the main shala for Ashtanga Yoga (a.k.a, “Ashtanga Yoga Home Base,” “Ashtanga Yoga Mothership,” lol), it is very much the same, but also quite a bit different.

For one there are MANY more people practicing at the same time, lol.  So many students have been coming over the years that not only was a new shala built (the original one in the neighborhood of Lakshmipuram could only hold 10-15 students, I think; the current one, in the Gokulam neighborhood, holds probably close to 100, and even then students end up practicing in the locker rooms!) but they also had to assign people to time slots, with the first group starting at 4:30 in the morning, and the last as late as 11:00 in the morning.  Sharath gets up even earlier and does his practice I think around 2 in the morning.  I know, I wonder the same thing—when does he sleep?!  Anyways, when you arrive in Mysore, you go and see Sharath (if you are practicing with him) and he gives you a start time, usually on the later end (unless you are a regularly returning student of his, then you are likely to be put in an earlier start time, with the chance that it could be 4:30am, lol).  Then, as people leave to go back to their homes, your time gets pushed back to an earlier time.  I started out at 10:30am and am now at 9:00am.  Now, don’t think for a moment that because there are so many students practicing there that Sharath does not somehow know who you are, because he does.  I don’t know how, but he does.  He may not know your name yet, but he knows you, and what time he gave you.  I’ve seen him catch people trying to get in earlier, “you, why are you here?  I gave you 10:00 start time.  You’re too early, go home.”  He also has his own method for when he lets people come into the room.  When you arrive for your start time, there will usually already be people waiting either in the lobby outside the practice room

or, if it’s really busy, on the stairs outside.  

You sit down behind everyone else and wait until someone in the room finishes their practice and Sharath calls, “One more!” or “Two More!”  Prior to coming here, I had heard how some people try to push their way to the front, but my time group is so incredibly polite and courteous.  Sometimes when Sharath calls one more, there is a delay and he calls out, “no fighting,” but we are not fighting saying, “it’s my turn!” we are trying to figure out who’s turn it is, saying, “no, you were here first, you go!”  But, as I said, Sharath also has his own method.  Sometimes it depends on where there is space.  If the open space is up on the stage (there is a small stage up front where he usually sits, with just enough space to have 2 students practicing on either side of him), then he calls, “One more!...Small!” (I think that if he ever plays Tetris, he is probably a master Tetris player, lol).  Or, in the case with the group of the time slot that I practice with, he usually has one guy move to the front of the line because his practice tends to be slower, “Slow man, you come front!”  Other times, it has to do with not who arrived at practice first that day, but with who has seniority.  I saw that yesterday when he pointed to a lady and said, “You, come front, she is senior student,” or “you come front, you registered first.”  Other times, there is just no obvious reason, such as when he had me and another girl move to the front of the line even though I believe both of us are in Mysore for the first time, both of us arrived at class today a little behind everyone else and both of us registered around the same time as everyone else—who knows, lol!  What’s really amusing is to hear him call for a specific person but he does not know their name, so he calls, “One more—Japanese!” or “One more—Russian!”  So, though he may not know your name, he definitely knows who you are, and where you are at in your practice.

Similarly to when you first start practicing Ashtanga Yoga, on your first trip to Mysore to study with Sharath, everyone practices the Primary Series first, even if you are practicing from a series further in the system with your teacher at home (for example, I am about ¾ of the way through the 2^nd series with my teacher, Kate O’Donnell back in Boston).  There are a couple of reasons for this.  The first of which is that you are new to Sharath, so he needs time to observe and get to know you and your practice, from the beginning.  The second is that the Primary Series has a very grounding energetic effect.  Traveling at any time has the ability to leave you feeling very disoriented, let alone traveling (for many of us) across multiple time zones to a completely unfamiliar place.  You will likely be tired, so practicing only the Primary Series in the beginning is also help get you settled.  I must say that for these first couple of weeks, my yoga practice has been just about the only thing that has felt familiar and safe (meaning that I didn’t have to worry about it making me sick, lol).  Which brings me back to the point I was trying to make at the beginning of all of this, lol—practicing in the main shala is very different than practicing at your home studio and with your home group.

With more people practicing there, the energy of the room is literally different.  It is stronger.  During my first practice, aside from being full of nervous energy (since it was the first practice) I literally felt carried along by the strong energy of so many people practicing in the same place.  So, in some ways, practice has felt easier here because I am being helped along by the strong energy of all the people there practicing in the shala--kind of like how it is easier, sometimes, to run faster, or just easier, when you are running with a strong group of people (like in a race or something).  But, that also means that it is easier to get carried away by the energy, and you have to really make sure that you keep the focus on you and your breath and your dristhi (gazing point).  I have noticed that if I let my mind wander for a moment (to either what the person next to me is doing or to some random thought that floats through my mind) then I lose track of where I am in the practice, “what number breath was that?” “Did I already do that pose on this side?”  So, for me, I have noticed that I have become much more focused while I am practicing here…you know what else has helped in putting my mind in a more quiet and receptive state?  Being sick, lol!  Anyways, with the practice taking on a much stronger internally-oriented focus, a lot of the more subtle aspects of the practice have become more noticeable—such as how the connected pose-breath pattern creates a rhythm and when you pause or fidget, you break that rhythm, or, similarly, how letting even the smallest bit of aggression into your practice (either in trying to force your way into a pose or in feeling competitive with the people around you) also breaks the rhythm of the practice; or seeing how much letting your gaze wander invites wandering thoughts.  Or, from a more physical standpoint, how making a small adjustment in how you do a pose really changes how it feels—such as noticing that when I focus more on pressing down on the actual tops of my feet, and not the tops of the toes, in Upward-facing dog

 it creates a much more anchored feeling in the pose, making the back bend part of the pose feel more accessible, and making it feel like I’m also more connected to the rest of my legs.   But, even though the internal focus seems to be heightened here, practicing at the main shala is simultaneously also a practice in being aware of your surroundings because you are likely to not have more than one hand’s distance on all sides of your mat between you and the people practicing next to you.  So, when you move into and out of postures, you have to be aware of where the people are around you, otherwise you could end up knocking someone in the head when you jump into or out of a pose, or end up sticking your foot in someone’s face, or having all of those things done to you, lol.  I know everyone expects that they will often have another person’s body part either touching them or on their mat, but I still feel awkward letting that happen, lol.

~SIDE NOTE: Sharath’s led classes are both hard, as he makes you hold all of the more challenging postures longer (such as in the last posture, Utpluthi

 where he gradually counts slower as the numbers get closer to the final number, 10: “Seven, don’t come down…………….Eight…………………………Nine……………………………………………………………..(walks out of view to check in on students in another area of the room while your arms are shaking from effort and you don’t know if you will be able to stay up for another microsecond)…….oh, why you come down?!………Ten!”) and they are totally amusing, because it’s a bit like a game of “Simon Says:” “Inhale, lift your head, exhale there.  Don’t move!  I said, ‘exhale there,’ why you hurry?”~

Another thing I have found about practicing here, thus far, is that there seems to always be something that you need to give up, usually it’s a sense of control.  As I mentioned, one of the benefits of this practice being taught in the self-practice method is that it makes us responsible for our own practices, and starts making us into our own teachers.  However, there is a danger of becoming rigid in our practices, clinging to our old habits and becoming closed off to new ways of teaching, thinking that, “hey, I’ve got this down!”  And we forget that we are all still students, learning both from the teacher and from the practice itself.  I had thought that I have always been pretty open and receptive in my practice, until I came here and Sharath started to change my back bends.  For those of you unfamiliar with the practice, each series goes like this: surya namaskar (“salute to the sun,” picture this as part of your “warm-up”), standing poses (again, like a warm up, the suyra namaskar and standing poses are the same for everyone), the postures from whatever series you are practicing, a back bending sequence (with varying degrees of intensity or “bendy-ness”), and the finishing postures (which everyone does, no matter which series you are practicing).  Currently, my back bending practice has become advanced, but it was not always like that.  I had to really work for it to be where it is at now.  At first, it was issues with pain in the lower back (courtesy of old back issues related to a hiking injury and imbalances from a foot injury).  Then it was issues with extreme light-headedness, to the point where I felt nauseous and thought I might black out.  I became quite nervous and fearful of doing them.  But, after years of patience and caring attention, both from my teachers and from the attention that I, myself, was bringing to those poses, my back bends are now in a really good place.  Even at their deepest, they feel very freeing, empowering and like there is literally more space in my back.  So, when Sharath started to change them, I immediately felt resistance.  They were not big changes, just move the feet wider apart (well, a lot wider for me, I currently prefer them hips-distance apart, he wants them almost as wide as the mat) and do not work to straighten the legs.  Currently, in my deepest back bend, I am “catching” (Sharath’s word of choice, lol) my own ankles (without assistance) and balancing and breathing in that posture for several breaths before coming up on my own.  

Or, when I am doing them with my teacher, the hands are further up the legs, to maybe about the lower calf muscle.  When I am doing that, I work towards straightening my legs because doing so feels like it helps me really access my legs and stay balanced in the posture well.  So, with his changes, having the feet wider apart and keeping the legs more bent, I felt totally disoriented.  It felt harder to use my legs and like my center of gravity was totally off.  I started feeling pretty annoyed by this, thinking, “Quite messing around with my back bends!  You don’t understand everything I had to go through to get them this way!  I know what I am doing in these, just leave them alone!”  But, I was forgetting something—I am not the teacher.  He knows where he is taking my back bends, I do not.  Furthermore, here, in this place and with this teacher, I am a beginner.  No matter what I practice at home or at what level I think I am at, here, I am a beginner.  I finally let go of trying to stay in charge of my back bends (aided, again, by feeling very sick and not having enough mental energy to resist, lol) and you know what I discovered?  I am just fine.  My back hasn’t broken and after a few practices, I have found my balance again in those poses.  

It all reminds me of something that my friend Cara wrote about her first meeting with Sharath in 2011.  He had asked her if she was a beginner, and she said no.  He questioned her saying that she seemed very sure of that.  And she quickly said, “well, we are always beginners in some way…”  But, now, I am really starting to understand how true those words are—always a beginner :-)